second star to the left, go until dawn

this kid has school tomorrow. how much does that suck. at 8:30am my ass will be sitting in some random desk in my American National Government class. how boring does that sound? and i get to follow that up with my history class which i actually want to go to seeing as i'm a huge history buff. but dude after that hell. what the hell was i thinking when i picked this oral communications class? i must have been on something. i'm the kid who took four years to talk to everyone else in high school and i expect myself to start talking right off the bat now? we'll see how it goes. i think i'm going to try and jump into my i don't give a shit mode and try to get over my fear of public speaking. you know it's not the talking that scares me. it's the eyes. i hate eyes. i don't like people looking at me because all i see are eyes. eww. but i'm going to give it a shot and try to not be nervous. there have been a few times where i've been able to pull it off. i've gone to the front of the room had everyone watch me, made a fool of myself speaking spanish and didn't care. it was awesome. so i'm going to try and pull that again i just have to figure out how. i think i might actually try and make some friends while i'm there tomorrow too. that is if i can keep my head off the desk and my eyes open. I'm not too good at that but i'll give it a shot as well. goodness i'm wicked nervous.

oh so my roommate is cool. i had no need to worry. so that's a good sign. oh and she doesn't have a problem with gay people so i can come out anytime i want. if i feel it safe enough to do so... maybe. one day. we'll see. but yes so the room here is wicked boring. apparently i missed a big keg party here last night because i wanted to spend one last night in the comfort of my bed. aww i miss it already. so i totally disinfected the room today with all my cleaning stuff. scrubbing bubbles are awesome. air fresheners are amazing. i really enjoy cleaning. gosh can you tell i'm beyond bored. i'm almost excited to have homework and studying to do again. Anything to end the boredom. thank god there was a new podcast tonight. that killed some time. i still have forever until i'll be tired and then i'll blink and it'll be time to go to school. holy hell. later days.