simple, starving to be safe

I want to go home already. I miss Boston way too much. Having the opportunity to go there for college and possibly having to pass on it is killing me. Sure life would be easier staying here, but should I take the easy way out? I haven't thus far so why start now? I look back through all of my pictures taken from various Boston trips and it kills me. I remember this winter when I went back and there wasn't a day that went by where I didn't over hear a group of people discussing their desire to want to go to Florida or having been there or planning to go there soon. All I could think about was how crazy those people were because all Florida has to offer is extreme heat, tons of tourists and major traffic headaches. There is nothing appaeling about Floirda. Sure the attractions are fun to go to but I'd much rather spend my time walking around a big city talking in everything it has to offer. I must admit that I do love going to Universal and riding the rides, especially Jaws because I look out for the families with the young kids so I can watch them cry, but other than Universal there is nothing that great here. Disney is ok but ugh major tourist attraction and despite the amount of times I have been there I can never seem to find my way around Disney property. There are signs everywhere but I always get lost. I was just so disappointed to here how badly everyone would choose to be in Florida over Boston. I understand we all get tired of where we live, especially me, but hello Boston over Florida? I don't think people really understand how hot it is here. I personally hate wearing shorts, I love layering my clothes, and well that just isn't appropriate dress attire for the weather here. I just hate it. I know this is the most random rant ever but it made me sad going through all of my pictures and then thinking about this whole having to choose a college issue. I just am totally in love with Boston and hating Orlando. Damn the fact that college is so expensive and my parents aren't willing to let me take out tons of money in student loans. I am going to fall behind if I stay here and then transfer out to NEU next year. Ok maybe not wicked far behind but I want to get started on all my criminal justice courses now and then really take advantage of co-op during sophmore year. If I skip out on NEU this year would I even be able to do co-op next year? See there is so much crap to look into and I am really running out of time.

ok now enough about that stuff... I really want to address how pathetic of a person I am. So yes today is good friday and normally I wouldn't think anything of it, but apparently everyone at school is using it as an excuse to skip school. I skipped school today but not using that as my excuse. I just skipped to hang out with all those other kids and to not have to go to spanish class. Well apparently everyone else is still at home sleeping and I am sitting here at the library typing in this random blog because I can't be at home because my dad is probably home now and I'm not supposed to be skipping. I seriously got up read some fan fics, got scared that my dad was coming home, went to Target for an hour and now I sit in the local library with all of these other random people. I don't think it gets more pathetic than that. Oh wait it totally does. I got here at 9:30 and the library doesn't open until 10 so I sat out in the parking lot with my bottle of windex and paper towels cleaning my car windows inside and out. So now I have clean windows and a pollen covered car. So sad. Hopefully I get a few calls soon so I have some options as to what I am going to do today. If not I think I will maybe waste gas and head out to the mall where I will again see if that one girl is there and then maybe try and muster up some kind of courage and go into the store and say something. Maybe I'll actually buy a pair of shoes to see if that will start a conversation or something. I just know I can't keep going there to see her and then not going into the store and actually talking to her. It's so ridiculous. This whole just staring at each other has got to end. But yep so hopefully I figure out something to do today. At least I know I have movie plans for tonight. That should be exciting. Tomorrow is the Marshmallow Drop followed by visiting my grandmother's grave and then off to the mall if I don't go today. Then Sunday I guess will consist of me washing my car and then lying about going to the library again so I can go back out to the mall and play stalker. I seriously must rank top ten pathetic people in the US list. Oh yes and in between all of this I will be glued to my computer reading fan fics and relistening to the latest podcast enstallments. oh the joys of being me.

oh and let me profess my undying love for copeland because they are just the greatest band ever.