Last Chance To Lose Your Keys

Today was the first day off of school due to weather. ernesto was a bust but hey a day off of school that I don't have to make up is fine in my book. Now we're all waiting for the next storm to come. My friend's roommate is from new York and she was wicked scared about the storm which led to her saying some the funniest things ever. Poor kid.

school pretty much sucks. I've already started my tradition of sleeping through classes despite my best efforts. I really don't know how to stay awake. I mean I get there early and sleep until class starts. I take naps at the library in between classes and then I go home from class and sleep before I decide if I am going to do my homework or not. not too good. I'll get my act together eventually. So far the classes are good too. There's only one person that has really annoyed me to the point where I just want to punch the girl in the face but I do my best to ignore her. So far the only difference between college and high school is that I must walk a million miles a day from one room to another and it's so damn hot outside. I hate Florida and the heat and that bright sun. It's too much. At least I've taken advantage of all the free food. I am the biggest mooch there. That's been the only good thing thus far. Grey sounds like she's had a much better college experience than me. All the parties happen on the weekends where I'm at and I always go home since I'm wicked bored. I guess I'll have to stick around one weekend.

oh oh and there actually is a pride parade here that comes in October. So that's exciting. I'm going up to UF to go to one there with a friend of mine and then I'm going to try and make him come back here with me so we can to this one. So I was wrong before and there is one and yes. The end.

second star to the left, go until dawn

this kid has school tomorrow. how much does that suck. at 8:30am my ass will be sitting in some random desk in my American National Government class. how boring does that sound? and i get to follow that up with my history class which i actually want to go to seeing as i'm a huge history buff. but dude after that hell. what the hell was i thinking when i picked this oral communications class? i must have been on something. i'm the kid who took four years to talk to everyone else in high school and i expect myself to start talking right off the bat now? we'll see how it goes. i think i'm going to try and jump into my i don't give a shit mode and try to get over my fear of public speaking. you know it's not the talking that scares me. it's the eyes. i hate eyes. i don't like people looking at me because all i see are eyes. eww. but i'm going to give it a shot and try to not be nervous. there have been a few times where i've been able to pull it off. i've gone to the front of the room had everyone watch me, made a fool of myself speaking spanish and didn't care. it was awesome. so i'm going to try and pull that again i just have to figure out how. i think i might actually try and make some friends while i'm there tomorrow too. that is if i can keep my head off the desk and my eyes open. I'm not too good at that but i'll give it a shot as well. goodness i'm wicked nervous.

oh so my roommate is cool. i had no need to worry. so that's a good sign. oh and she doesn't have a problem with gay people so i can come out anytime i want. if i feel it safe enough to do so... maybe. one day. we'll see. but yes so the room here is wicked boring. apparently i missed a big keg party here last night because i wanted to spend one last night in the comfort of my bed. aww i miss it already. so i totally disinfected the room today with all my cleaning stuff. scrubbing bubbles are awesome. air fresheners are amazing. i really enjoy cleaning. gosh can you tell i'm beyond bored. i'm almost excited to have homework and studying to do again. Anything to end the boredom. thank god there was a new podcast tonight. that killed some time. i still have forever until i'll be tired and then i'll blink and it'll be time to go to school. holy hell. later days.

Reinventing Your Exit

Does anyone know where the summer went? I've had four months off from school to enjoy myself and all of sudden that times up. This time next week I'll be pacing my dorm worried about class the next day. Gosh I'm moving. By Thursday I should be all moved into my dorm and I'm not ready for this. I'm wicked nervous already. I mean I'm all for moving out of my house, but I'm moving in with someone I don't know. Seriously I didn't find out who I'm living with earlier so now I have to basically just meet this kid when I walk into the room. I have to live with a stranger. That means I'll have to change my lifestyle. I'll actually have to live in a room where the lights go on and watch her listen to country music or something that drives me crazy. I really am expecting the worst possible person ever because that's just my luck. I don't have any luck. I don't want to leave my big comfy bed for that dirty little bed. Oh great dorms are so dirty. I don't handle dirty things too well. You better believe I'm loading up on purel and all different kinds of sanitation products to clean with.

oh gosh and a week from tomorrow I have to go to school. SCHOOL. I don't like that word. I'm not exactly the school type. Sure I did IB and so that basically labels me as a smart school kid and all but no. I was clumped in the slacker group. I was queen of sleeping through school. I mean I slept four out of six classes and I even slept at lunch. I was the kid starting my homework at one or two in the morning. I was that kid walking down the hall to English trying to finish my essay as I walked. How the hell am I supposed to deal with this college trash? I can't sleep through all my classes there or do assignments as I'm walking to class. Oh gosh and I'm taking an oral communications course. Do you know what that means? I have to talk out loud in front of a class. I'm sick just thinking of having to do that. I'll never sleep or eat because I'm always going to be nervous about that damn class. I'm the most nervous kid ever. As soon as someone mentions the words public speaking to me my face loses it's color, I feel sick, and my hands shake out of control. I would love to use this class to get over that fear but it seems impossible.

I already don't like the idea of college. As much as I would love to go in there with that positive attitude and be that social butterfly I can't. I'm a loner. I'm the kid that just floats through going unnoticed and I like that. But hey it's college. It's that new start to try something different so who knows. I'm just wicked nervous about the whole thing right now. Then again I'm always nervous when I start school. I'll see how it goes. I always thought that college was going to be my chance to just be out and not care but I can't. Not at this school not where there are just a few certain people that I can't risk knowing. Do you know how much I would love to be out? I'm letting one family get in the way. A family that I care more about than my own. See I should have gone to school far far away and started over and not cared at all. Goodness gracious great balls of fire. I'll figure something out. And all apologies go out to any of you that read this. I just had to throw all that crap out there because I've been sick thinking about going to school all weekend.

Here We Go Again

So this kid got a new hat and was excited. I phased out of the beanie so I moved on to the military style hat since that seems to be the only thing they carry these days. I feel like a train conductor in it at times but I still like it. I saw two more hats that I wanted but I'll have to wait to get those.

some will seek forgiveness

two more months and the Halloween season will be upon us. I can't wait. I honestly love Halloween more than Christmas. I get more joy out of going to Halloween events, watching people get scared and screaming my head off than opening presents on Christmas morning. Halloween horror nights is going to be awesome this year and I feel sorry for all of you that don't get to go. It's just yea... I have no life so I read all these forums about it and I'm so ready. There is nothing better than being scared when it's all in fun. As long as Michael Meyers doesn't show up this year I'm set. Anyway yes just thought I would share my excitement for Halloween with all of you. I hope some of you enjoy it just as much as I do.